I love general conference weekend! It's a relaxing day where me and my husband can stay home and listen to the wonderful men that happily serve our lord and really strive to understand what they are saying and how to take it in and try to be the people they want us to be. It's been a rough week but also a happy week for my husband and I, we found out we were pregnant on September 19th and then found out that we lost the baby on September 28th. I find this experience such a hard trial but a wonderful blessing. Everybody keeps telling us that we need to be happy and move on, It's so hard to be happy and move on when you thought you were going to have something that would last forever but it ended before it even started.
As time goes by we feel more comfort and peace that the lord wants Taylor and I to have a baby but he wants us to be more prepared for the next little baby to come. We keep telling ourselves that we were prepared for this baby that we lost, but in all reality we weren't. Now that we are both on the same page, we now know that all we need to do to get pregnant is to make sure I get a shot because Taylor and I are different blood types, we also know that our insurance wouldn't have covered us under maternity so that's something that we need to get before we try again.
I'm sad that we lost our baby but I'm at peace. I know that the lord has a little baby spirit waiting for us in heaven and I know that it want's to be here with me and Taylor. I really don't know how I would've gotten over this if it weren't for my wonderful husband, friends and family. I know everything is going to be okay, I know that I will have a baby soon and I know that I will have an eternal family and we will be together forever.
"Though our knowledge of the plan of salvation does not explain why miscarriages and stillbirths take place, nor what the eternal result will be, we can know with confidence that God, who is the father of all spirits, is merciful and just. We can know also that there is hope. Worthy parents can trust in him and know that they and all his spirit children will—one way or another—receive a just reward for their efforts and sacrifice, perhaps in ways that we do not presently comprehend." (Val D. Greenwood, manager of special services, Temple Department, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. )
Thank you Daymi for all your love and support I appreciate everything that you said and I'm so grateful for you and your wonderful family. We love you and thank you.
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